back to the drawing board

well it's over a year since my last post on here. Changes and things that stayed the same come to mind. Looking for core themes and whatever meshes them together with the rest of a whole life. Core themes seem to be that those things that endured, survived, even triumphed in the past twelve months. Some did not, death of mother, death of an ex-mother in law, bring much to mind. Death of a car and whole way of life. Death of a dream or am I refusing to allow the dream to die. Death of good health, or is that another dream that can be kept alive somehow.